Tuesday, January 09, 2007
well now i start to believe that practice make perfect.
1st of after a long holiday break i forget all about the math and physics formula and things.In the past this never seems to happen.Anyway after a weekend ,did the holiday assignment for math and the feling and thining starts to return but that is just one part of four things which i need to recover.my next step now is to get my memory back from physic.seems that i have to study physic myself for this year again.always a chapter slower then the other people.finally learn what thermal physic is the formulas and stuff.well next lecture on electrons then i do my thermal tutorial.anyway now they set the questions from tys which means we have to do from it.which means i cannot do unlesss i am in school unless i photocopy it.haven bought my tys.think sz also have to do that.lol.well the 3rd skill i have to gain back is programming.have to refresh myself on the if else switch case,loop and functions.not to forget bout arrays and craeting files and extract from fles.
hmm now the most important skill that is my gaming skills.well i seems to be able to micro well and things but i seem to lose my touch on the backstabing and things.my escape also sux.item build is only ok now.though still bit strange.well i cannot say my teammates are not good cause i could still own last time even if my team is feeding.thus conclution is i sux.dam.but if i were to train back on my skills my studies will be affected not that i want good gradesto get to the course i want but that i want to show that i am capable to enter the course i am expected to go by .... just like what i did for my O levels.just show i am able to go to ...**jc then come back to the one that i feel is suitable for me.
but again sometimes it is because of our past results that causes people to have a view or expectation on us.well my eldest sister and brother got good reults from psle then o level ,A level.but my 2nd sis dint do wel for psle and all my father did was scold her or what for dunno what.after that she went to normal stream then poly without my father opposing.but for me i just did average for psle and he wants me to go jc despite me wanting to go poly.but at least he let me choose a jc i prefer.all i hope now is he do not force me to go to a university.I would rather try and strike out on my own if i suceed it is good,butif i fail i could always try again.we have only one life .and i choose to have a life that is not normal to be different and special.
never say it will be done in my next life as it never exist.
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