Wednesday, April 11, 2007

well it has been so long since i last posted.after my com spoilt and the one i left in school for so long then i go to repair it.and for some reason i cannot log in blogger there.so now using my sister laptop to write.so many things have happened over this month.well the common test results are out and i think i got my prediction all correct.just my econs did better then what i expected.was expecting another U like promos but amazingly just like last year mid year exam i manage to score for my DRQ .and once again my essay balance it back.getting 20/30 for drq and 4/25 for essay.not bad eh?manage a 22% last year and got like 46% now?like a more then 100% iprovement.and this time round screw my math and physic again but is a better type of screwing manage to get a low A as expected.and computing just never change always B.well but think many people might be wanting towack me up.for almost min efffort i can get A.and to say the through i am actually quite disappointed for getting the score for that standard of paper.k think i should talk about bridging now.

last week went over to james koh house to have a class gathering .well not bad the food.and also found out that his house is so near mine and the design of not only the house and building but we got the same level and unit position of the blog.freaky i would say.lol.then after that some of them came over and we played bridge.for the whole night.is so fun.with so many mind games and thinking.plus the kind of joker style bidding which still can win with sucky hand or the screwing of a godly hand.this is so fun.should have set up the bridging club last year together with the dota club.then there will have 2 cca founded under my name.haha and i will own.talking about this it make me think about e being the president of it club again.

well i some how got no idea or what that for some reason or luck plus coincidence that this useless person with have ideas but no persrverance became the president of it club.he who does nothing but slack and abuse his power almost screwing up a fundamental cca in schools.haiz think i am going to be the worst president it club ever had.perhaps the worst choice paik ever made.there are like so many other people that are more capable then i am.the least i could do now is that at least i let every member of mine had a fun cca i hope.well not many jc have this cca.not that i am bragging or what but really pjc really have high expectation from me.my math physic computing teacher have got high expectation of me.even my gp teacher expect me to do better.i know i made alot of promse to mrs tan last year when i appealed to pjc thinking that my l1r5 is great .but to say the thruth i only do things i am confident of otherwise i will just do it leisurely.not taking it seriosly.but those that i have confidence in i know that i can achieve what i target with min effort.i got like a very small effectiveness from the amount of hardwork to results.but maybe this is what they call active learning yeah?cause passive learning is just memorising every single shit information and release them during exam and forgetting everything.can get an A without even understanding what u are writing.but somehow i believe the reason i can do well wihout studying sometimes is cause when i learn that time i understand how the equation and formula work.and how to manipulate them.and also exploring out their relation.so that no matter how the question is altered i am able to change the formula accordingly.but sometimes i feel i am lagging abit behind when i read too much into the formula.but that allows me to not having to do much revision .

The last thing that i would like to do before the end of my time as a president of it club is to go all out to do the inter-school competition.Is like a very distant goal.but this is the only thing that i can do now to help all my members to get a good cca record.seeing that we did not win any competition at all.the idea of playing computer games as an cca does not seem to be a good imprssion for the people when they look at the testimonial.
hmm it somehow feel quite good o write all this thing out.,what is erally in my mind.what i want to say out but dare not tell anyone else.there is something that i want to say but notn sure if i should.well just hope no one see this.well my luck in cca and studies have been so good i guess but the thing that i wanted to be good does not seem to be good at all.maybe it is my shyness or perhaps just that i look sucky.the attitude of mine may have an factor too i think.that is those that i like just by some stroke of unluckiness or what.i seem to be unsuccessful in all.could it be that i also cannot give up or i just don dare to do things that i have no confidence in.but everytime i am getting abit further.hmm agreed to go study with someboday during the holidays but everytime did not have the courage to go.and that i am sorry that i agreed to help them in their weak subject but end up i dint.maybe mid year i will pick up more courage and go with them.and i hope i can really help them.and break from the own shyness shell that i made myself that protects me.ok guess i should go and slowly train my courage and perserverance.i can do it.

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